Done

Dear a man that I thought my father

It's been a while huh, since you left home on that rainy day
I know that you were still young and reckless at that time,but it was not my fault
I know that your heart was broken at that time,but it was not my fault
I know that life so unfair to you n mom at that time,but it was not my fault
I know and I understand that it was a hard time,but still it was not my fault

Years by years
Time to time
I thought that I am your lovely little princess that will make you proud someday
I thought that you're my first love as they say "daddy is daughter's first love"
I thought that you will proud by my achievement
I thought that I'm the only one that matters

That was what I thought since I can remember until today when I saw that you are happy without me

Well..it's ok
I'm glad that you finally found your happiness
And it's such a relieve to know that I'm no longer be the reason you're happy or sad
My bad attitude won't make you sad nor my achievement won't make you happy
So I guess I'm done
I'm done of trying to make you proud
I'm done of trying to make you feel honored
I'm done of trying to convince my self that I have to forgive the past
I'm done of trying to be your sweet little girl
I'm done of waiting you just to say
"I Love you and I'm proud of you"

Maybe our relationship is just a coinsidence of a universe.
And thanks to this coinsidence, I've learned a lot
I've learned that I have to love my son no matter what, even when my heart was broken into pieces
I've learned that my son should know that I love him and I want him and I'm proud of him

Please, have no regrets, I don't hate you or angry or disappointed with you. I'm JUST DONE